A down day...

Maybe it's the weather (cloudy and rainy here) or maybe its my hormones, but I am feeling depressed and blue. I suddenly found myself while sitting here at my desk thinking about the baby we lost and where I would be in the pregnancy process. This weekend we would've been entering our 15th week. It's been 10 weeks since we lost our "poppy". Its weird to think that at this point we would know the gender and would be planning our nursery. I know with time it will get easier, but today my heart aches and wish that things could be different.